Happy 1 Year Birthday in Heaven my little Wynter Monet Celisa!!! You are loved every minute and we prayed last night that Jesus would give you a big party with a cake to dig into. 😊 Mommy made an attempt at a cake down here and it turned out pretty decent actually! Daddy and our foster girls approved.
When you were born a year ago, you were as sweet as could be, looking so much like daddy with all this black hair right out of the womb! I miss your smell, your baby soft skin, that baby dino cry and your tiny hand that gripped my finger so tightly. Even though our time with you was so short, there are a lot of things I’m forever grateful for. I’m so glad you were incredibly alert and looked right at me and reached for me within minutes of entering the world! I was amazed to look into your eyes and so touched that you wanted me. I’m so glad I got to nurse you for a short while and experience that sweet gift of bonding. You were a natural and made latching seem so easy. You also looked right at Daddy and Aunt Becky was able to capture that on camera. That’s one of our favorite photos of your sweet face and Daddy’s loving expression right back at you.
Today I bought you some balloons and Daddy and I both bought each other flowers, unknowingly, for your birthday! All the beauty reminds us of your beauty. We also snuck out to Asian food in the evening, to have some alone time to talk about you, then we came back and did cake and released a Chinese lantern into the sky for you to catch. Did you see it? It was a big one, like the light of your spirit! I can imagine you’re spirit is glowing even more now, if that’s possible! Oh how I wonder what you did today up in Heaven. I often imagine you running through the wildflowers and the lush green grass with all my other friend’s babies who also went onto Heaven early. I bet you have so many friends! I wish I could be there with you, but I know that isn’t up to me. Only the Lord knows my number of days. And he knew yours too. I can’t understand his plan and why your life here was only 7 days, but I know that He is in control of it all and He is good, so I must trust Him. He is giving us the strength to carry on without you, though it is the absolute hardest thing we’ve ever done. We want to make you proud Wynter! And one day when this old world is over and gone, we will all look back at the stories of our lives here and remember all that the Lord has brought us through and done in our lifespan. This is just the beginning my sweet girl. There is so much of life to be lived for us here and beyond. And your purpose isn’t over. I can only imagine what God has in mind for you up in Heaven. I bet He’s got some cool, creative tasks for you to do. I bet you’re an amazing artist like Daddy and maybe a singer like Mommy. You’re probably a writer like Mommy and Daddy. Please write down all that you’re doing there, so I can one day read your journals and catch up on the full life you’ve been living there.
You’re never far from my mind, my daughter. We will celebrate you always my Asian doll! So grateful you made us parents and taught us how to love better. 😘💕Until we meet again my little Wynnie Pooh! Love you with my whole heart!